Each for a different person; some may know this journal exists, others may not, but it does not matter at this point in time. Only know that all of you are in my thoughts, and that you have made enough impact on my life to warrant a spot on this entry.
1. I know I haven’t spoken to you in so long — and when we do, it is never for a lengthy period of time. I admit this is partly my fault; even as I think about why this is so, I can only come up with the feeblest excuses: university, work, time differences… I miss you a lot, I really do. And I wish I could be a better friend, and allow you to realise our four years and counting of friendship has never been in vain.
2. It’s funny how the past can make a big impact on the present; Stephen Hawkings once wrote that that it had to do with wormholes, or in any event, a Physics theory I have never managed to wrap my head around. I’m skeptical, but somehow I blunder forward, and I don’t know why.
3. You’ve known me possibly the longest out of all my current friends; and you have definitely lent your ear the most times to my complaints, my paranoid ramblings, my anger. You are my one sane point of contact — the most grounded of all the people that I know. I mean it when I say that I don’t know what I would do without you. You’re younger than me, but somehow more mature than me. And I’ve taken it for granted all of these years, but now no longer.
4. Darren Hayes once sang, “I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye”. And I realise more than ever that this belief, this affirmation, is one which rings true in my life these days. I know I blew up over something very petty. It was an issue which, back in Brunei, would have been resolved in a matter of days — maybe even hours. Here, it has extended beyond two weeks already, and I am missing one of my best friends, and the phone conversations we were likely to have each week had it not been for this. I am sorry. And if I do work up the courage to call you tonight, I hope all will be forgiven… and we can start afresh.
5. It really was six months of ups and downs — the craziest roller coaster ride I’ve ever been on, metaphorical or otherwise. People told me I was being silly. In fact, they used even stronger language. But I am never one to listen to popular opinion; in that respect, I’m a maverick, and I paid the price for it. I have learnt a lot, though — “live and learn”, right? I’ve learnt that my friends know more than I do, and I know how never to treat a person in order deserve their respect in the long run. I’m not angry — oh no, I’m over that stage. I am really of the opinion that I exited that situation with my head held high, and my pride intact. Thank you.
That takes care of the people from my past, who either will stay in my past or continue into the present. What about the present?
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I had my first Spanish class this afternoon, and I was relieved and delighted when I arrived at the classroom and realised that another budding lawyer I’m better-than-acquainted with was in the same class. Sometimes, it’s fun to go into a language class and know no one — after all, there is no one to judge you on the way you pronounce words, your poor grammar or conjugation… But today I was really happy to find someone there who I could speak in English to while pretending to be chatting in Spanish in class, because my Spanish fluency has hit rock-bottom since the end of my exams last year, and I was stuck multiple times — but as my Spanish oral partner, he was patient and even (undeservedly) praised me. So yay! That was two hours of agony, with two such weekly hours every week from now on till the end of the academic year.
Me llamo Natasha. Tiene veinte anos y soy de Brunei. Quiero ser una abogada en el futuro. Me gusta leer, y ver las peliculas tambien, especialmente “Los Diarios de Motocicletas” con Gael Garcia Bernal.
I swear I’m more fluent on paper.
My reading list for my Introduction to the Legal System class this week seems endless. But somehow, I’m enjoying the course more than ever now, and had my best ever Criminal Law class on Tuesday. And I really enjoyed our Public Law lecture today. I was very disillusioned with Law at the very beginning — I kept threatening to switch from Law to History (or Geography, as a joke), where my interests lie. But now, I don’t think liking my course is an issue anymore. I am beginning to really like and enjoy the material, so (:!
I was watching the virtual and cabin videos for the new Airbus A380 that Singapore Airlines is beginning to operate, and MY, is that a sexy aircraft. I’m really not a big fan of the Airbuses — they’ve always struck me as being a tad uncomfortable, sparse and impersonal. However, the videos really make me see the Airbuses in a new light. Economy class seems about the same, but the new suites in First class are AMAZING. And no, I’ve never travelled in anything but Economy class before, save for the two times I was upgraded to Business on my flight back from Melbourne to Singapore, but it’s always nice to know flight comfort will be damn decent when I’m finally working and my First class seats will be paid for with company/organisation money. (:
I be off to take a shower, and finish my ILS readings. And play a game of chess, in between. I won my first and only InstantChess.com match of the day, by the way — and won 1 and lost 1 to Leonard (who is the only other person playing chess for LSE on Saturday with me!) last night. Hmmm, I need to get better at this chess gig.
Good night all!
I had a really good day, away from the pollution and bustle of London. Even though Amal and Jei did offer me a free day trip to Belgium for today, and just last night too, I’m glad I spent my day in the countryside, among quaint little buildings, beautiful architecture, and centuries of history. Now, there’s Nottingham to look forward to next weekend! And of course, tomorrow, Sunday — which I plan to spend reading Public and Criminal Law.