happy birthday Monday, Sep 29 2008 

Dear you,

You should know who you are before you read the remainder of this post. Happy Birthday, you!

The story of how we met all that time ago is pretty epic, and where we stand today as friends, a testament to how we’ve managed to stay in contact with one another even though we’re oceans apart. We’ve battled time differences, and crazy periods in each other’s lives — major overhauls, stressful phases, everything. You’ve taught me a lot as well (and I hope I have too); well, mostly things that prove rather inconsequential at the end of the day, but it’s great fun committing them to memory and scaring you about how much I actually remember yonks after the fact!

May this year bring you many blessings, both big and small.

Happy Birthday, KCS aka Creative Consultant!

Love,
Tash

P.S. I’ve delayed the posting of this entry till exactly midnight your time in Canada. Hopefully I’ve calculated the time difference correctly, or the purpose of this time-delayed entry would be defeated. Have a great first day at work!

brunei: the final sunday images Sunday, Sep 28 2008 

I have nine hours to kill at Changi Airport before my flight at night. I have a list of duty-free shopping to take care of before I fly off, but as much as I dawdle I don’t think it’ll take much time at all. I usually end up finding something to munch on every hour because there isn’t much else to do — and somehow the idea of a transit hotel room in T1 isn’t so thrilling either. Oh well.

Well, till we meet again in London. (:

Note: Pictures taken with my 3.2 MP phone. They aren’t superb, but they do the job.

brunei: some final images Sunday, Sep 28 2008 

Decor in Portview, Bandar. It's kind of wannabe-Italian, but it's appreciated all the same!

I don’t think I’ve appreciated the sheer comfort of being back home more than I have this summer. My four months of holiday — and especially my two-odd months back in Brunei — have gone by pretty quickly. So quickly, in fact, that I haven’t crossed off all the things on my mental to-do list yet, which is still growing in length. And time is running out; no time to go to Jing Chew, or have mee mamak at C.A. Mohd!

Suan and I had our final lunch-cum-shopping session today, and in Bandar for a change as well. The roads are practically jam-packed in Kiulap and Gadong now that Hari Raya is just around the corner. The sad thing is, I won’t be part of the festivities yet again this year — I think it’s going to be my fourth year in a row now that I’ve missed out. Everyone seems to have postponed their flight so they can at least celebrate the first day of Raya here, and it’s always fun to doll up and wear great baju fesyen and visit people’s houses in what is known locally as a “convoy”. I’ll be back in London then, so everyone will just have to celebrate on my behalf!

(I’m online because I can’t sleep, and believe me, I’ve tried.)

Suan and I had lunch at Portview, which used to be a pretty swish place to have lunch when I was working at Standard Chartered last year. The food’s still good: I like the fact that they make their burgers by hand, with tons of onions and herbs, and if the front door weren’t open and hot air blowing in courtesy of the river, it would have been the perfect lunch. And we talked — talked about her trip to Japan, our impending return to university life, and about life in general — while sipping from our sweating glasses and watching motorboats speed across the river.

Curlicues and cheques - although Suan's feet seem to be the focus of the picture!

My mobile phone camera takes pretty sucky macro shots (but maybe that’s because I haven’t worked out how to change the settings yet), but you can sort of see that the manicures we had after lunch in the afternoon went very well despite my initial hesitation at getting a design painted on my nails. I think both of us are dead pleased with them!

So summer in Brunei has equalled netball, good times spent with friends and friends, great food, and just feeling like myself for the first time in ages. I will really miss all the great comfort home provides, and the general security it provides. My grandparents and relatives on mum’s side and my family went for my final BIG dinner in Brunei earlier tonight at BeeHwa (Batu Bersurat), an establishment that actually has better food than Thiam Hock, believe it or not! The next meal of that sort won’t be for six months.

I’m growing pretty rambly and I don’t want to be awake when my dad has to get up for his golf tournament tomorrow. I’ll leave you with a couple of random pictures from the depths of my laptop, of some of the things that formed what was an incredible Summer 2008.

I didn't realise what they were doing with the dome till yesterday - the SOAS Mosque celebrated its 50th anniversary on Friday, and they were in the middle of the cleaning process for the occasion when we visited with Joe-Han. Note: I don't know why the guys are standing so stiffly. OI RELAX, it's a holiday!

White- and milk-chocolate muffin, whipped up during stress-induced baking sessions. It's a wonder I didn't put on that much weight over the summer!

White- and milk-chocolate muffin, whipped up during one particular stress-induced baking session. It's amazing that I didn't put on that much weight over the summer!

P.

My sole cousin on mum's side left in Brunei. We do get along pretty well despite the nine year age gap... when we're not fighting! :P

A handful of the LSE SingSoc Orientation Group Leaders at Aloha Loyang during Freshers Camp 2008. We were hiding under a roof for shelter, away from the awful pelting rain that plagued us all weekend!

Okay, I can’t be bothered uploading more pictures when Espeed is being so laggy this early morning. I’ll catch you guys again before I fly off on Monday. Tomorrow equals finishing my packing (and it’s impossible to cram six months’ worth of absolute essentials (to me anyway!) into one suitcase with only 20 kilos of luggage allowance), having a final good lunch at Yappy (boo, I don’t care!) and picking up Leonard from the airport (at a really unearthly hour) when he lands. YAY long day — I really should be in bed.

Till my last update from Brunei before London (lyk zomg!), take care!
xoxo

kurt halsey Friday, Sep 26 2008 

though i may look as unaffected as that little deer
(it’s not the look of haughtiness or indifference etched on its face that i mean to convey)
i feel like that overturned chair right now.

sleep-deprived Thursday, Sep 25 2008 

EQUATIONS:

Tash + Broken sleep = Cranky Tash
Moody Tash + Unfinished presentation = ?!?!?!?!?
Cranky Tash + Cracked mobile phone screen = Moody Tash

When I know I have to get up earlier than usual, my body automatically kicks into sleep-deprivation mode. My brain tells itself that since I have to wake up at stupid o’clock anyway, there’s really no point in me getting much sleep — better to function solely through adrenaline. This means that either:

a) I wake up periodically, sometimes every hour, thus shortening my overall sleep-time; or
b) it takes ages for me to fall asleep, and when I finally do, it’s usually only an hour or two before my alarm is set to ring.

Last night, it was ‘a’.

And I have a presentation to complete and present today.

This will be fun.

(Also, while setting my alarm for 5 am this morning, my mobile phone slipped through my fingers and crashed – head-first – onto the tiled floor. The screen is now cracked and I think its LCD/plasma contents (I’m not a tech-buff, haha) are leaking internally, turning the display into a brightly-coloured blobby mess.

RIP Sony Ericsson w910i. You’ve been through a lot with me — helped me stay in touch while I travelled the globe (Italy and Spain at the very least), facilitated outings between my friends and I, allowed me to sneakily surf Facebook and check Gmail during lectures… — it really has been a good year with you.)

crapola Wednesday, Sep 24 2008 

FWAUSHUAEDAWUDHUAHUWUEIFISHEWEUFHWEU 

AMANDA, NOOOOOOOOOO.

… =(

notes on a scandal Wednesday, Sep 24 2008 

“We are bound by the secrets we share.”
- Notes on a Scandal, 2006

And that quote packs quite a punch; it really does.

Notes on a Scandal unites two chapters in my life; Cate Blanchett is an old MLC Collegian and a previous Cato House Drama Captain, while Andrew Simpson reads Law in my year at LSE. Everyone talked about the “guy who starred in that movie with Cate Blanchett” when I first arrived at Bankside last year, and few at a time, many of my hallmates got their hands on copies of the movie and saw their friend/hallmate/acquaintance/Law buddy star in it. I did too, over the weekend.

There are few movies today that really make you pause for reflection after, and this is one of them. Its biased, one-dimensional narration courtesy of the protagonist, Barbara, serves to really alter your view on the scenes unfolding before your eyes — before you’re snapped back to reality at the end of it all. Your feelings regarding the characters evolve throughout the course of the movie; and you realise that loneliness has many faces and it is our ways of dealing with it that truly define who we are.

If the movie is this fantastic, the novel should be even better. It’s going on my list of must-reads for the year, behind books like The Blind Assassin and East of Eden which I’ve started … and not finished, and which are yellowing on my bookshelf at home.

Work’s winding to a close now, and it’ll be kind of sad to leave at the end of the week. A four-week long internship isn’t that long a time to spend with an organisation, and I just feel like I need more time here. Our presentations are on Friday, and that’ll mark the end of our tenure here. I’ll see Imah heaps when I return to London, but going from seeing HM everyday to once or twice a year till summer will be kind of strange! I’m looking forward to actually getting some proper sleep though — I have two days to catch up on all my lost z’s before I get hit (badly) by jetlag. It won’t be fun.

… okay, back to work!

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brain dead Monday, Sep 22 2008 

I have a headache the size of China, pounding away just behind my eyes.

There also happens to be a knot in my chest, which seems to prevent me from drawing in enough air with each breath.

I don’t know what it is, or whether I’m coming down with something  – but I’m still upright and functioning and at work.

Please don’t let me fall ill this week.

Oh, and about the golf
- don’t ask.

the ryder cup Sunday, Sep 21 2008 

Querido Sergio,

You are facing what could possibly be one of your toughest Ryder Cup Singles pairings ever tonight. Anthony Kim has grown from strength to strength over the past two years alone, and proved a formidable opponent in your first Friday Foursome of the Cup this year. Nick Faldo shows faith in your ability through his decision in sending you out first today – and I share his conviction that you will be able to lead the battle for the Cup this afternoon and bring home another European victory.

You may not know this, but I’ve been an avid fan of yours for eight years now. When everyone was “getting married” to Justin Timberlake in one particular Spanish oral in Year 12, I decided that you would make a better faux husband and dedicated many Spanish diary entries to my plans for our grand wedding. In all seriousness, I laugh and share your joy when you hit excellent shots and underscore your standing as one of the world’s best young talents; I cry along with you when you narrowly miss cuts at tournaments, or prove to be a mere stroke or two short of winning championships. I think you’re an amazing, talented golfer, and that’s why I have continued to follow your progress over the years.

If I didn’t have work tomorrow, I would be up at the unearthly hours of midnight and beyond supporting you and Team Europe. Unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately, considering how nervous I become when watching golf!) I’ll only know of the eventual score, and who the ultimate winner of the 2008 Ryder Cup is, when I wake up tomorrow morning.

Don’t let me down, Sergio. Let me see the Ryder Cup safely in Nick Faldo’s hands for yet another year this year.

Love,
Me

It’s a little known fact that I have been brought up on a steady diet of golf. My dad is a golfer, and as his first-born child, he felt it was his duty to teach me the ways of the game. So, from the age of nine, I frequented the local driving range with my dad as mentor, learning to putt, to drive, to chip and to swing through him. Many afternoons were spent using the living room carpet back home as a makeshift “green” to improve my putting, and bedtime stories turned into revision sessions on gripping techniques. I watched golf on the television, learned to identify clubs and when to use them, and studied swing techniques.

Alas, it was not meant to be. After about a year and a half, I decided that golf was not my calling, leaving my dad with his new child prodigy — my brother, who at the age of 7, could hit a ball with his driver further than I could.

Ten years on, my skills in the sport have all but dried up, but my love for the game still remains. Golf tournaments, whether televised or in real life, are father-daughter bonding time in the family, although a lot of squabbling takes place while we watch the players in action. Though my dad taught me all I knew about the game, my favourite golfers aren’t necessarily his, and he takes a certain pleasure in being able to rile me up about their shortcomings in tournaments.

My favourite golfer ever is Sergio Garcia, a Spaniard with a sunny disposition — great when watching skins games on the small screen! Like most twelve year old girls, Sergio managed to tranfix me with his playful, boyish charm and great smile. Although he has never won a Major, he manages to deliver well under pressure, and is almost always in contention for the title in every tournament he plays in (he just can’t cement it!) — something my dad loves to bring up whenever he appears on the screen.

His competitive nature and ability to hit brilliant shots when required means that in tournaments like the biennial Ryder Cup, he’s a great player to support; you really feel for the man! And this is the first year in aeons that the Ryder Cup has been teeing off at a particularly good hour (considering the time differences) and/or is being televised on normal cable television and not on a special subscription channel. I’ve spent Friday and Saturday night trying to catch as much Ryder Cup action as possible … all the while fighting for control of the remote with my mum, who insisted that her weekend nights be spent watching movies, and my dad, who decided that his Liverpool-Sunderland match was more important than watching the failing European team.

I’m actually a little relieved that Sergio is teeing off just past midnight tonight on the last day of the Cup. My heart inevitably skips a beat and I tend to hide my face behind magazines, newspapers — anything that’s close at hand — when crucial shots are being played. Golf isn’t great for my nerves, particularly when I’m insanely loyal towards Team Europe and want them to pull off their fourth straight victory so badly.

A Team Europe victory would undoubtedly set the tone for a great last week in Brunei.

I hope I see what I want to see when I wake up tomorrow morning.

“Pa, do you know that Sergio Garcia broke up with Greg Norman’s daughter already?”
“Um, daughter… Does anyone
really care except you?”

I rest my case.

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