work Friday, Oct 31 2008 

My foolscap pad with random jottings, doodles, individual tasks and timelines in three different sets of handwriting from our meeting tonight is lying on the desk before me. And I’m having a hard time deciphering what I’ve written — let alone my train of thought.

I don’t think I’m cut out to be a leader. I like being a lemming; the idea of being told what to do and to be able to do it well under orders, is what I feel best cut out for. Having to make executive decisions which could affect potentially hundreds of people is something I have qualms about, but it’s a fear that I’m going to have to overcome this year. And whether I like it or not.

Some people are born leaders.

Some people-
(like me)
- just aren’t.

I’m not being pessimistic — merely stating a fact. It’s a self-confidence-related issue that I’ve managed to come to terms with over time. So I’m never going to be the CEO of a huge multi-national corporation, nor even run my own business on a small-scale … but somehow, I like it that way.

But this year, Indonite is under my ambit and it’s going to be a hell of a night.

You heard it here first.

frost Wednesday, Oct 29 2008 

I was going to type a decently-long Tash post about hopes and dreams and life and a particularly scary incident involving a diabetic on the tube, but after being caught in a hailstorm and having been drenched by the rain and walking a million miles in what seemed to be subzero temperature…

… well, I think it’s time for bed.

The night started innocently enough. After arriving home from school and cooking dinner (well, microwaving something from M&S!), I managed to drag Kooyeon back to the Three Tuns for the Live Music Society’s first acoustic night to scout for talent as well as see how the Underground Bar could be used for a live music event. The music was so-so — some bands were pretty um, shite, others were reasonaby good, and there were a couple that were pretty damn awesome. We left after about an hour and a half, only to find the streets covered with snow that had turned into slush — so we basically missed the actual snowing bit, but came out just in time for the aftermath. (: Snow is pretty. It’s also very cold.

Well, the snow was pretty until it started pelting with (freezing) rain and I realised the bus services were being delayed on account of all the waterlogged roads. I literally turned into a popsicle waiting for a bus to Regent Street — I couldn’t feel my fingers! — but arrived at WJ’s drinks party in time for the cake-cutting ceremony. Then, we hit Verve to end the night, where everyone was either really drunk or really sober and there were no in-betweens. The 38 bus service is pretty crap at night, and Kenny took me in the wrong direction while we were trying to figure out which bus stop was the one that would take both of us back home, so I froze some more… and didn’t defrost until I arrived home just under an hour ago! I’m updating my journal while stuffing my face with Leonidas chocolate, and should really call it a night before I decide that Admin Law is worth skipping tomorrow. ;D

Good night everyone! (And Happy Birthday once again, WJ!)

work Monday, Oct 27 2008 

I’ve been taking naps intermittently throughout the day – crashing for three hours in the afternoon yesterday, and going to bed at 11 pm last night, only to wake up at 4 am to finish off work.

If this persists, I might actually die of exhaustion. I’m brain dead and tired, and slept fitfully.

I just want to get through today, and then sleep all the way till tomorrow afternoon.

Wish me luck.

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lyrics Friday, Oct 24 2008 

There are certain lyrics and their respective melodies which underscore how good a song is, and make you feel warm and fuzzy/nostalgic/insert strong emotion here each time you listen to these refrains.

My particular favourites (in no particular order, and with no particular connotation. I’m just full of respect for the talent of these musicians and the great, timeless music they create.):

Though we never thought that we could lose
There’s no regret.
Fernando – ABBA

… that I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go.
Blind – Lifehouse

I know that it might sound more than a little
Crazy but I believe…
I Knew I Loved You – Savage Garden

What are yours? (:

one of those updates Tuesday, Oct 21 2008 

Ever since my parents arrived in the country, I’ve been fed and watered adequately, and certain housekeeping duties back in the house taken care of. I know it has only been a mere three weeks since I left Brunei, but it seems like I haven’t seen my mum and dad in so long! My brother is also whiling away his time in London now that it’s half-term. I really want to take him around to the nooks and crannies of London I’ve found after a year of being here, but between society and school and sport commitments and some socialising in general, I really have no time for that.

The weekend was pretty fun. Saturday saw a Hari Raya Open House at Shida’s at Bayswater, where just about everyone from my Maktab Sains days was. The food was good and OH EM GEE I’ve finally had tapak kuda after so long! (Tapak kuda is a Malay sponge cake made with a thick layer of Nutella in the middle, and it is everyone’s favourite kuih come Raya. I could eat a whole slab of it and still have appetite for some more!) I now remember why I miss celebrating Hari Raya in Brunei — it’s the vibrancy of the food and the decorations, the baju Raya (both traditional and modern alike) and having a good time with friends. After the Open House, Laura and I attempted to go shopping on Regent Street for something she could wear the Dorchester Raya celebrations the next day. Unfortunately… there was nothing appropriate and within price range in the shopping precinct for that purpose, so she had to wear the baju kurung I like to brand my ‘goth Barbie’ one the next day. Hee hee.

On to the Raya celebration at the Dorchester. In true Bruneian fashion, Laura and I were far from being last ones there even though the doors were meant to close at 10 am and we arrived just in the nick of time. ;D The celebrations were a little low-key this year compared to last year’s: fewer items on the programme, but a few that were on were hilarious! I loved the races to the stage to claim the ketupat prize during the Raya quiz, and the dance by committee members and the surprise performance by the Indonesian band J-ROCKS (uh.. I’ve never heard of them before though) were amazing. It was great to see everyone in the same place at the same time again — and of course, there were tons of opportunities to take photos with everyone looking stunning in their baju fesyen and baju cara Melayu (pinstriped suits to boot!).

I’ll let the pictures do the talking:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=39401&l=75edc&id=504068902

Maya also had a gathering at her house earlier tonight for us ex-classmates (Group 7 2007/8 FTW, HA HA!) and we all tubed back to Shepherd’s Bush with her for a meal at her new crib with Sonia. Maya is such an amazing cook — her enchiladas and nachos were legendary, and we shared cake and ice cream after which topped off an already fantastic meal. I kind of miss the camaraderie that all of us had last year; it is nice to have new classmates and meet different people from other faculties and all, but it’s good to know that quite a tight bond has formed between us and we still get along well after a summer apart!

Time to hit the hay. I have Administrative Law to read up on tomorrow…

P.S. OH. MY. GOSH. DAMN FUCKING BIATCHES. THIS IS BLATANT PLAGIARISM. I AM SO PISSED OFF.

mirrored Monday, Oct 20 2008 

You might just want to examine yourself in the mirror first.

K, thx.

of life Wednesday, Oct 15 2008 

Looking back at my old entries makes me realise that I tend to update only when I have nothing to do — no places to go to, people to meet, or university to attend. I’ve been running around (sometimes literally) for the past week or so, once even leaving the confines of London to head up north for an overnight visit!

Too much has happened, so much so that one journal entry won’t do justice to the number of things I’ve seen/done/heard/experienced/insert verb here since I arrived in London. I’ve attended nearly two full weeks of lecture and one week of classes, yet I realise I have the slackest timetable for a Law student ever — only NINE contact hours this year, and yes, this takes into account both lectures and seminars for each of my four modules. I have Fridays off, which means a year of long weekends and sleep-ins. I’m also taking History instead of a more conventional module, and realised after today that I’m the token female taking Administrative Law in the whole of LSE.

I’ve celebrated my birthday twice, and there’re still a number of hours to go until I actually turn 21. (See my Facebook profile for pictures from the two celebrations.) York and Leeds also saw an overnight visit from me last week, courtesy of Iman and I putting our thinking caps on and orchestrating a surprise for Suan on her birthday. I did pay 80-odd pounds just to see her for dinner and a sleepover that night, but the look of amazement and her ensuing dazedness (from excitement and shock, no doubt) was worth the hefty sum of money I forked out. Suan also repaid the favour by coming down to see me over the weekend, where we pigged out, shopped and revelled in each other’s company. Laura will also be spending the weekend with me in preparation for the Bruneian Raya celebrations at the Dorchester on Sunday; my brother gets out of boarding school for half term; and my parents will be down for the next three weeks or so.

I was elected the President of the combined Indonesian-Bruneian Society at LSE in a shock victory, and I am handing over my position as the PR Officer of the Singapore Society.

I don’t sleep enough because my flatmates keep me up till the wee hours of the morning with their general banter, crazy antics and their loveableness.

I’m sitting in the computer lab trying to finish up Presidency-type stuff but am failing miserably.

And it’s exactly ten hours till my 21st birthday. I celebrated on Friday with Leonard, Suan and Jiang Yue with dinner at a tapas bar in Soho, followed by drinks at Dirty Martini. And the following night, I hosted a dinner at Belgo with some of my closest friends here in London.

I have the bestest, loveliest, most dependable friends ever — those I trust, truly, madly, deeply — and these past few days have really made me aware of this fact, as well as realise that I’ve taken so many people for granted all this while.

Have a great day, everyone!

these are the days Tuesday, Oct 7 2008 

I have an enviable timetable for a Law student: only nine contact hours a week, with two of those hours devoted to another discipline unrelated to Law. I’m really happy with my timetable, what with my free Fridays and pretty decent class times (i.e. only one 9 am class! YES.)

In other news, the heater in my house is finally working, although we still have a slight carbon monoxide emission problem. (Maybe that’s why I feel so lethargic come 10 pm every night.. Mmm.) My house mates and I have also almost perfected post-dinner, pre-bedtime banter around the dining table, usually accompanied by a six-pack of beer — a “nightcap”, I suppose. Living in a house is so different to what I expected, and I like it. Sure, the cooking’s tough (I attempted penne tonight, which didn’t turn out so bad considering I didn’t have my recipe for it!) but somehow my room here feels like a proper bedroom – my bedroom.

And it’s all good.

24 hours Monday, Oct 6 2008 

In the space of 24 hours I have:

  1. watched the house I’m sharing transform from a dusty, dirty dump to a sparkling gem of a palace.
  2. ran around in the rain at Berrylands during netball tryouts.
  3. actually cooked dinner – yes, using the stove!
  4. had post-training drinks with the jitsu team down at Shakespeare’s Head.
  5. had my absolutely random outside option okay-ed by my (new) personal tutor.
  6. come down with a chesty cough that’s only going to get progressively worse.

2 shouldn’t have been followed by 4.

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